So. Much. Anxiety.
Who knew? You were expecting maybe some baby blues, a low mood.
You’d heard about that.
But no one told you about the extraordinary anxiety you could experience in the postpartum period.
You can’t believe what you’re thinking.
Is the baby breathing? I’d better go check. Wait, let me check again.
Is the baby getting enough milk? Maybe I’m not doing this breastfeeding thing right.
Is the baby safe? Maybe I’m not being careful enough.
What if I do something wrong; will my baby get sick?
You might even be having thoughts that scare you:
Maybe I will harm the baby.
Maybe I want to harm the baby.
Maybe I will act in an irrational way.
What kind of person am I to think this?
If others knew I was thinking this, they’d be horrified.
I must be a bad mom