The thoughts in your head feel relentless. You wish you could stop thinking them. The word obsessive really does fit.
What’s especially hard is that you know your thinking is excessive, and the things you do in response can feel excessive too. And while you know it’s all too much, you can’t stop.
The rituals help for a moment, but only temporarily. Then the same endless loop returns…thoughts followed by anxiety, rituals, momentary relief, and then thoughts and anxiety again. You may feel exhausted from trying to control your mind. You may worry that if people knew what you were thinking, they would misunderstand you or think something is wrong with you. Many people silently wonder, “Am I the only person who thinks like this?”

